there's a certain kind of pain that can numb you

it's raining outside tonight. no torrential downpours, just a soft, misty summer rain. this weekend has been one of constant goodbyes. yesterday stephen left for college, and i said goodbye to jon too since i won't see him either. tonight i hugged two heathers goodbye; a friend and a cousin. and tomorrow i'm leaving again as well. i suppose the rain is appropriate then. it's set my mood, a gentle sadness. i've stopped fighting goodbyes, but the goodbyes have yet to become easy.